Dysphoria

My bigender Yuri headcanon goes far from just a couple sketches

I'm a trans boy so I somewhat identify with this headcanon. I feel like there's more to Yuri wanting to learn how to move in feminine ways, choosing Viktor's costume right after Viktor told him it was a costume that had both a feminine and a masculine side, doing ballet as a side hobby, and comparing himself to the townslady who broke the womanizer's heart. To me, Yuri's feminine side is more prominent than we see, and I can see him trying makeup, putting on feminine clothes, and even trying to grow his hair out - only to halt in the middle of it all because he'll "never look like a real girl, anyways."

I've been having trouble with dysphoria more often than not, and this is a completely new feeling for me, I've never felt uncomfortable in my own body up until the moment I found out I wanted to look more masculine.
Looking androgynous or masculine is incredibly hard in a curvy body, and even though Yuri is a Japanese boy with a slimmer body, I feel like he feels similarly.

There is no reason for me to share this personal info with you all, but I just wanted to show how important this headcanon is for me.

Viktor
Viktor and Yuri